So as with all momentous occasions that are supposed to be fun, my blog's first birthday brought me a lot of unnecessary stress. 1000% crazy, I know, but let me tell you guys a little secret about being a blogger... it's isolating. And isolation makes people crazy. As a blogger, you get to meet a lot of new people and do things that you normally wouldn't, but the majority of the time, you're on your own. And not just that, but because you're a thriving part of the community at large, your inbox is constantly full of people doing incredible work, and sometimes that's hard to take.
The insecurities can seep in any moment. Am I crazy for doing this? Is it even any good? Am I wasting my time? Sometimes just the disappointment of not having the resources to create what is in my head and what I know is possible can be crushing.
But that's why I love this quote...
It's my mantra for this past year in blogging. Honestly, I LOVE blogging and hope I rock it til the wheels fall off, but sometimes the comparison game can feel CRAZY! Honestly, coming up on this 1 year celebration was just stressful. I wasted energy thinking I needed to hire a web designer (that I couldn't afford) to fix the amateur things I don't like about my blog. Feeling like I need new equipment (that I also can't afford) because, well I actually just do need it, but I have to wait. And feeling a whole lot of other silly self-imposed stresses. Because that's what other people are doing and it's really hard to see great stuff and know you're just not there yet.
So anyway, this semi-meltdown of a birthday (which, let's be real, most birthdays involve at least one) has actually been a real blessing because it's completely refocused me. I've updated the things I could: see the new categories above for locating archived posts/projects, the new about me, hire, and advertise pages, and my new watercolor social media buttons that I am in love with! And for now I'm learning to accept the fact that I cannot for the life of me figure out how to adjust the logo code to not warp in smaller windows (advice welcome). These things for now are fine. They are part of my beginning and part of the learning process. And maybe next year you'll see some slammin' new web design, but until then, I've got some other things up my sleeve to make up for some less-than-lovely HTML...
1. More DIYS! This was actually my entire reason for starting a blog and I haven't even featured a project in ages! Expect way more very soon!
2. A focus on beauty. Because there's more to fashion than, well, fashion.
3. A couple of new series posts that I'm really excited to start this month.
4. See the new little Etsy button? Well, if you click on it now you won't be very impressed, but it's there for a purpose and I'll be sharing that with you very soon...
Oh yeah, and MORE GIVEAWAYS!!
But most likely not bees...
And so that's it. I'm one year old now and the sage wisdom that comes with such maturity has gotten me to this zen state of seeing the negatives, feeling hopeful for the positives, and appreciating every single second of both as the journey that this blog has led me on. And if you are still reading at this point, first of all, thank you, because it's been quite a rant. And really, the support I've received from my regular readers sometimes overwhelms me. And since you are the glue of the whole thing, tell me- what you would like to see in this next year of blogging? Anything you'd like to never see again. Remember, I'm taking the good with the bad, so any and all suggestions are welcome.
And while you're at it, please check out the StyleOnHigh Facebook page for a birthday Flipagram of the year's best moments!
Thank you for sharing this year with me! :)